The heart is a really funny organ. It does all the work - pumping blood, keeping us alive. But it never gets the credit. It is small, yet it has to learn to man up and be the strongest. Not because it knows it is, but because it know it has to. Because if it dies, all the rest around it will stop functioning as well. Because it knows, that if it were to fail, even once, that was it, it was the end.
So what am I? A heart. The one that pumps laughter and pain and memories into the bodies and minds of the people around me. Those who don't need it I can forgo, because then it does not concern them. But those I hold dear, I know I have to keep pumping, even if it means I will be torn to shreds, even if I know I have to push beyond my limits. I cannot fail not now, not ever.
I will never be happy, until those around me are happy.
My sister is what undid me. Her passing destroyed a part of me. I was the heart, but I let her fail. I was the heart, but I didn't do enough. Maybe if I pumped enough blood, maybe if I pumped harder, pumped faster. She will still be here, and the human body which we are all apart of as a family, can be whole again.
I am a heart. But a weak one.
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Frustrated
See, its a bit frustrating at times. When we do bad things to others, others feel offended. But some people get away with it, because they do bad things, at a more discreet level, at a level where others dun seem to mind, or just don't have the capacity in them to mind. I recently felt a little balled when a friend added another friend into a facebook group, for the sake of just one gathering. Now, it makes perfect sense to add someone into a very tight group since it belongs to all of us, but wth do we do with the person after the interview? Madafaker we added you because we felt comfortable with you. This is not a group where you just add people for events or some other shyte, if u wanna do tat go make ur own motherfucking event. It leaves a poor loophole in the dynamics of the group right now, I cant even post things like I use to. ==''
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